sad...upset..fed up...

arrgh...holidays is now going to the end of road
at first,i felt that holidays damn boring,but now...
haiz...i felt regretful of what i thought before,
but now it's was too late....to apologize it
sometimes,i will appreciate some of my friend,
born in a rich family,have good result,good attitude...
but i'm not as good as them...anything they want,they'll get it

not as usual as me,born in a medium family,
result a bit satisfied,but not so good,attitude must improve further
going dead is a foolish and ridiculous way to overcome these problem
it's not absurd that i come from a medium family,just feeling that...
uhm...kind a suck feeling...its sound chill...
why other people can play computer at midnight but i can't?
my mother always say that she's for my own good,but i just can't see about it

Sometimes,i will realize that mother is correct,
but that's not the thing that i want!i want do something that infinity
I know it is not good because maybe will influence my result
but i just need this only,no more I need to...
in house,i never feel any free feeling before,until now onwards i didn't!
so..mother,u cannot say me naughty because of i play computer in morning,
Yes,you can say me bad,scold me,advice me...but,i just i want this feel!
This feel amazing...unlimited free!until mother u come back,i must be a good son

Obsessive to be your good son!I don't feel any good on it!
just want have some free space for me,that's enough,i don't want other thing anymore!
Christmas Day,it's chill!that day go to Bentong located at Pahang state for dinner
go to the restaurant to have dinner and also marriage wedding of my cousin brother
Usually,I will go to my grandma house to have overnight there...
Damn!sucks!chill!the wedding already destroyed my sister and my plan!
my sister and I like to go to my grandma house is because we can free at there!
I can play computer unlimited,sister can play PSP and that sounds good!
we jsut can go there during holidays,just holidays only mum let us go!

Now i have no more much time to go there...after a week,i'm form 3 student
i must sit the PMR test,no more time to go there have fun,need prepare my revision!
There just 1 thing i can do,that is say bye bye to it,hope i can have a good memories
Holidays.....Bye bye!I miss you...forever!